on the verge of giving up

things going on my mind :
on the verge of giving up~
can we start all over again?

haiiiiiiiihhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh............ i'm speechless... i wish that i dun have to see any of my group members for the video assignment anymore... i so feel like giving up... but i dun wanna retake this subject... i feel like screaming 'shut up' to everyone and take some time off, but time is the thing that i don't have... video shooting starts next week and the song is being changed... it's not even done yet! and the schedule... have yet to be confirmed.. and my life is so going down the drain... i feel very worried but at the same time i'm giving up, i'm so confused rite now.. don't just say it, do it and make sure it is as good as u say it is! u keep saying u'll find the singer, but Kah Mun was the one who found us not only 1 singer, but that 1 singer introduced another singer, i dunno if kah mun is the outsider or u are! i hate listening to ur voice... trying to show that u're good... i hate ur cold jokes, i hate ur so called 'sore-throat', i hate u more than the fact that i hate u being in our group... as if u're very needed in the group, don't forget that u were assigned to our group and not because we chose u, not because u were good, but because you had NO group and that we had NO CHOICE! i'd rather have chin chye than u in the 1st place! i wanna just stay away from u as far as possible, even the director dun wanna c u! i went out for 30 minutes to fetch the talents and u are playing with a damn electric guitar, that there were no progress to the song? u even spilt my drink in the lab 2 TIMES! ONE AFTER ANOTHER! what sort of person are u? to another person, WHERE ARE YOU ALL THE TIME? AT HOME WATCHING PORN THE WHOLE DAY THAT U'RE NOT EVEN FREE TO COME AND HELP OUT?! YOU ARE ANOTHER VERSION OF THE 1ST PERSON, BUT BETTER, BUT U STILL DISAPPOINT ME! all the time! i figure assignment is much more important than any other thing u're doing now that u're a student and the responsibility of a student is to do ur best in assignments and get high marks, if that isn't u, then u might came to the wrong group, because THAT'S OUR MISSION! i have a dean's list to worry about and all u can do is say and no do?! i'm seriously done with them once this sem is over! I NEED A BREAK! i miss my pigs! future sem's short film production will have better group members that are of more worth than u worthless humans! it's such a disgrace that have to have you as my group member, u burden me! i have to think on ur part, i have to assign u things, i have to do almost everything a producer has to do but u take all the marks in d end? to hell with that, i wish i dun have to worry so much but i have to, my goal is on the line! i'm so over u all after this assignment!

until then, this is jOyCe signing out at 9.07 , 31st July 2009

stupid UTAR computers...

things going on my mind :
yay... finished my photoshop assignment
i like photoshop, now that i know how to use it..
errghh... MV aasignment and Dreamweaver and MTA...
i HATE UTAR's Computers.. always impregnate my pen-drives...

UTAR's computers has once again impregnated my pen-drive with viruses... 2 times in a day... i knew it would kena one way or another... juz only formatted my pendrive last friday.. :( dun care liao, we need to 'chap' it in tomoro oso, so no point formatting again... :D
anyways... i finished my photoshop assignment.. pai-seh to show out...
we've already spent 100+ on props & equips for the MV assignment, most expensive to date is the DV tapes.. 3 for RM50.. bought from Kar Wing, their group got extra coz' 2 ppl went n buy 2 times.. haha..
next few weeks gonna busy... luckily got a few lectures cancelled..
this saturday got moral mid-term...
i seriously need a new phone.. mine juz dropped hard on the floor today and the mic rosak d.. :( well, the phone is 7 yrs old...
it's time to update my best friends list... :D
today, Kelvin saw Belle and wanted to know her, ask her # from me.. me asked belle, after a few msgs, she said 'Okla'.. was supposed to go her place to get SS' things, but msged her, called her until my battery kong oso cannot get her... maybe go c kelvin d... hahaha.. juz kidding...
chi yee's stuck with her line again, need to get ppl's photoshop files so that she can burn but her line giving her problem.. and mind u d files are quite big to dl from internet and mine is surprisingly smaller by almost 30 times...
MV shooting is next week! some ppl are sacrificing their lecture, tutorial and mid-term to go shooting in sepang... wtf?
i need more time...
i need more money too...

until then, this is jOyCe signing out at 10.o7pm , 28th July 2009

i'm so dead... for the sake of my assignment

things going on my mind :
dumb people and the way they do things IRRITATE ME!

i feel so upset now... despite the hardship i go through to try and finish recording the song.. some people juz dun seem to care!! especially, REEVE!!! i don't care if he read's my blog, in fact, i hope he reads it.. it's been 2 fucking weeks since that we've tried to find singers and record the song and he, being the only one who knows how to sing the song isn't able to perform EVERY SINGLE TIME WE NEED HIM! if u dun wan shawn to sing, den find some1 who can!! dun keep saying he's good or wat but not being able to get them to sing.. to say is easy, to do it is hard~! we're going to shoot beginning augst 1st and we've yet to finish the song and finalize things... i dunno la.. i'm very disappointed with the 3 guys in my group... they're incooperative and negative and pessimistic and not contributing enough... at the end of the day... me n chi yee have to go around doing everything... we even have to have other people to find us talents and we've found some1 to sing us the song but now because of reeve, we have to delay... after this time, i'm so over them!! no more i'll tell u, NO MORE! so many things to do, so little time!! i think my anger has subsided..


until then, this is jOyCe signing out at 8.47pm , 27th jUly 2009

Language and what nots

things going on my mind :
back to BM again? our future students are sooo gonna suffer
ARRRR.... ASSIGNMENTS! i'm stuck until the end of teaching weeks...

the recent decision to switch back to Malay and other vernacular languages for the teaching of science and mathematics in 2012 has made me and my mum very angry at the education system... first things first, if it has already been in English, let it be... y bother changing it here and there, it's as if the children are guinea pigs of the government's researches... to me, i believe the mastering of the language is essential for the future of the children... now that i'm in a university, majority of the students can't speak well in English, they still prefer to communicate in their mother tongue... everything that we're using now, the books, references, journals are all in English and i find some have a hard time understanding basic words that i know, most of the time, it's the pronunciation and meanings, some have electronic dictionaries, like my friend from a Chinese independent school... so i think that teaching in English, is crucial in the building of out nation, so what if you give more emphasis on the english subject? didn't you emphasize on all subjects, why are students still failling? basically why i'm writing about this issue is because when the topic was still hot, i did research on it in an two assignments...

i suddenly feel like such a failure, of not doing things in time, esp. assignments and now that i'm the producer of the music video team, i feel that i will let down the team... coz' i'm such a procrastinator, the week of shooting will begin in the 1st week of august and we're still lacking on many things, talents esp., song is almost ready, special make-up artist, clothes, i'm so dead by the end of this semester...

Kosh is back and i have yet to find time to go out with her, this woman has been in Hawaii for the past year or so... she's only gonna be here for 2 weeks and the 2 weeks are the weeks i'm the most busy, mid sem d.. i'll find the time.. i WILL i promise...

my july 11 went quite blandly, nothing to remember besides the fact that it was the best day of my life 4/5 years ago...

kor bought me my phone dy.. but to get it, i must go down 13 kilos by the end of august...

i feel un-unique anymore, my name is so common now.... :(

in need of revamping my blog... i nearly lost all its formatting that day... need time again!!

until then, this is jOyCe signing out at 10.37pm , 18th july 2009

7/11

things going on my mind :
it's d day...
bloody assignments... potong stim lar....

it's here, it's here.. 7/11 is finally here.. but there isn't anything to celebrate this year... to find out more about this date... please go here :

old post

i ought to celebrate with myself.. i duno... i just love this day and i hope i'll remember it every year... or not.. maybe when there are more important dates for me to remember den i'll forget this one... but anyway.. i hope your 7/11 will be a good one...


until then, this is jOyCe signing out with happiness and full of fond memories at 11.11pm , 10th jUly 2009

ps: Happy Birthday Julian John Especkerman! U may not see this but anyways... :D

a month's worth of updates... i guess...

things going on my mind :
assignments
my increasing weight!
things i have 2 do...
...& everything else...

sorry it's been a month... but things juz got to me... i have a lot of things to be busy about.. practically my calendar is full at the moment... luckily there aren't any outings etc. coming around.. coz' last week was definitely my last time going out esp. until so late... so, lemme move on to the things that happened during the month...

during the 2nd week of June, errmm... nothing much happened...
3rd week of June, we had MV pitching and we sorta did last minute changes and i esp. did last minute work for the slides which looked good to me... i wonder y i did last minute work... man! my memory is getting low... need upgrade... talking about upgrade, watched transformers d.. nice... but i feel the fight scenes are a bit slow n draggy.. stupid Adrian went & watch 5 times.. came back telling us about the flaws... wait, that was the end of June... coming back to the topic, MV pictching, we were chosen! to our excitement... but now we've got hell a lot of things to do... yours truly is the producer... Chi Yee is d director.. shawn's the cameraman, hock leng is the editor etc... song was written by CY, story is by CY, mostly.. and basically we have reeve in our group as well.. now the things is our song is ready but it kinda suck in a lot of ways, doesn't match the storyline(i deem it too soft), have yet to find a place to record and we've just met with Chin Chye, Kenny & Mei Chi, our group members from BC3 & we explained the whole thing to them... all over again! one of the reasons i have repeating things...

anyways... urs truly is the new secretary of film club... once again, i'm taking this sickening post, this is my 3rd/4th time.. but then again, it was better than being the chair.. coz' i was nearly nominated for it.. which CY got the post over shawn, jean n charan.. charan is the vice... we're supposed to have an exco meeting this friday, but under some unforeseen circumstances, we were to push it forward to next wed.. otherwise, it'd be an unofficial meeting.. btw, met wiith Ms. Tian, the DSA Head, this afternoon while attending for a talk in PB aunditorium, a reason to escape class, but was mostly forced by CY, whom was forced by Anthony... my 1st time seeing ling liong sik so close... oops.. TUN DR. LING LIONG SIK... hehehe.. and oso hou kok chun, deputy minister of higher education ministry... well, long story short, my dad used to be her netball coach.. & she sends CNY cards to my dad every year... supposed to wear smart casual, but most turned up casual... ahaha...

anyways... the last week was kinda my last week of ever going out late & all.. Thiv flew to NZ... and my clubbing days flew with her as well.. coz' thiv is d only person i went clubbing in KL with, coz' of safety and trust issues.. i couldn't imagine myself going clubbing with anyone else... which i hope will change as time passes.. coz' i'd really wanna go once with other ppl.. but then again, it's ALWAYS crowded.... anyways... Darren flew off 5 days earlier which made that week the most time i've went to KLIA until i memorized the road and the things i see on the highway.. btw, pix are on the right side-bar for pix on darren's farewell, thiv's farewell n adrian's bday dinner and rick's bday dinner... do check it out... freaking uploaded the 170 pix(in darren's album) for 15 times in 3 days.. damn pissed that time..

moving on... this week will be an extra bz week coz' we've got 3 assignments due next week consecutively 1st is Journal presentation for Comm Theory on monday, den Moral paperwork on tuesday, and Illustrator greeting card for multimedia tools for advertising on wednesday.. urghhhh... the agony once again... i want my sleep...

anyways, been reminiscing a lot of people i've not met a long time since SMKB life ended for me... recently brought XL to Kepong + Desa Park City, juz to drive around... told her a lot of stories of places i've been to.. and eventually strolling by the lake in DPC... damn romantic, juz with d wrong person... everyone there were 'normal' couples, only me n XL like the weird couple...

time passes by fast as we're enjoying it i must say, so fast mid-sem d.... like i always say,so much to do, so little time... well, i guess that's pretty much it.. i ought to go to sleep, tomoro got appointment with Mr. Beh to discuss our MV, hope he won't change the idea/storyline much..

do remember to check out the pix :D

until then, this is jOyCe signing out at 1.17am , 10th jULy 2009