one of the many reasons i hate myself

things going on my mind :
2012!

why do i have so many friends i've not met for so long?
i USED to be THIS anti-social, and i swore i will not continue being like this!
perhaps i am such a controller of myself,
such a perfectionist wannabe,
such a sucker at determination
honestly, i guess i'm just embarassed that i've put on weight and thus, my laziness
who cares anyway?

until then, this is jOyCe signing out at 10.07, 11th November 2009

sorry about the delay on the Holiday post, will post sooner OR later...

18 weird things about me...

things going on my mind :
*please call, please call*
what weird things are there of me?
HUNGRY!


was tagged by Sherry C to do this... found it fun actually, din know i was soooo weird... :P

1. I talk to myself, often ,frequent, ALWAYS

2. I procrastinate a lot... wait, that's not something weird rite? ok, lemme try again, i'm fat coz' i procrastinate, and the blog is seldom updated coz' of it too, that weird enough?

3. I like to pull guys leg hair for fun(only those I'm close to), same with sherry... :D i don't do that often though... started with my father.. haha.. the fact that he has a few strands left on his legs is proof... :P

4. I love curry, but never fresh chillies or the lot or those chinese sambal chilly sauce for chicken rice and stuff... almost same as sherry's as well.. :D

5. I like to carry the bags of stuff I've bought during shopping but nothing heavy or groceries... :P same as sherry also.. yup, that makes it 3...

6. I fantasize A LOT of everything, about being slim and pretty in heels, about being a hot actor's gf, even breaking up couples and the lot, anything you'd never imagine me thinking of, weird huh?

7. Despite my size, I do starve myself once in a while, when I feel like I've eaten too much at a time...

8. I can be very 'emo' at times, thinking about sad things... esp. when songs reminds me of things I relate the song to, ie: ai cuo by lee hom to someone I've had feelings for, for a looooonnngggg time, too long actually... but i still love the song...

9. I'm still a virgin when it comes to having relationships with boys, and that's why i can't imagine myself with a guy doing what couples do... weird?

10. (only 10? I feel like I brought out too much d...) Honestly, I still bite my nails, though not as often now...

11. When it comes to clearing up my room, I do it once in a while, but very thoroughly, so thorough that if something is not how i want it to be, I'll crack and cry in anger, so if you were to stay with me in d future, please get away straight away, if not, I WILL make you indirectly....

12. I'm super-duper dirty when I want to, I once went on for 2 days without bathing, but now I take care of my face a lot(eventhough it looks worse), so I bathe at least 1ce a day(yeah, i know, still not enough). And there was another time, I din wash my hair for um.... 4 days or more... hahaha.. coz' i was trying to go for some natural wavy hair, so i tied it up and din wash it for that long thinking when i tied it long enough, I'd get the style I want for a long time, but it only lasted for less than an hour or so...

13.The fact that I have a car, I can drive to somewhere not too far just to eat something, just to satisfy the craving... (McD's, cendol, fried fritters, 'tong sui', cheese cake, etc. talking about it, I feel like eating, coz' the whole puasa month I din get to eat any of those...)

14. I only re-vamp/give my blog a new look when I'm in a crazy state of mind, by crazy, I mean like bored until crazy, sometimes I even do it when I have a lot of things to do, just to runaway from the fact that I have those things to do, sort of like running away from my responsibilities...

15. My blog title has nothing to do with with its contents... coz' I very malas to upload photos, etc.

16. I love the little things in life that people do, either to make me happy or just because...

17. I think I'm good in science(SPM 1A, my parents asked why I did not apply for science stream then?) and I like to experiment with things, like if my car has a sort of sound, I'll try to find out how the noise come about and why... I also remember or try to figure out the sequence of the traffic lights I stop at if I have the time...

18. I watch porn... It's education OKAY~~...

19. I sweat a lot... like more than a guy normally does, I think I have hyperhidrosis, a medical term for people sweating too much, even on palms and feet...

20. I want everything with me when I go anywhere... like recently when I went to Malacca, I had to have a pair of heels, a pair of flats, and a pair of slippers with me.. in case we suddenly come out with the idea of going somewhere spontaneously, u wudn't wear a shoe to a hot spring rite? or heels for jonkers?

21. I expect too much at times(people to remember certain things or details), and I plan too much all the time(a day out with friends, I need to know the time to meet, what to wear, who'll be there, what we'll do, how much money i have to bring, what to ask, what to say, etc. ) if something comes unexpected, I feel like the whole plan needs to be changed... and i hate it when ppl cancel last minute.

22. I hate waiting for people and I hate it when I make people wait...

23. I almost stalk the people I like, like I'll try to get any info I can get of them, even IC numbers...

24. I never read books when I'm free, I only read when I'm not free... like when it's exams and I'm supposed to revise, I'd go read a book not related to my studies instead...

(oops) haha.. I have 24 weird things about me and if any one of the first 18 u don't count as weird, I have 6 back-ups.. :D suddenly feel like I'm such a weirdo...


I'll tag anyone who reads, except those who's already done it...

until my next update, this is jOyCe signing out at o2.37 p.m., 7th October 2008