one of the many reasons i hate myself

things going on my mind :
2012!

why do i have so many friends i've not met for so long?
i USED to be THIS anti-social, and i swore i will not continue being like this!
perhaps i am such a controller of myself,
such a perfectionist wannabe,
such a sucker at determination
honestly, i guess i'm just embarassed that i've put on weight and thus, my laziness
who cares anyway?

until then, this is jOyCe signing out at 10.07, 11th November 2009

sorry about the delay on the Holiday post, will post sooner OR later...