forgetful bitch

things going on my mind :
i had something on my mind to put in here,
but i just totally-randomly forgot!

i've been pretty forgetful these days, i've even forgot what i wanted to write here.... been so forgetful that i kept thinking today is saturday...
i feel a tad bit empty nowadays, i have nothing to stress about, and nothing to talk about, most importantly, i feel like i'm going to lose a friend, i dunno... maybe i'm just being paranoid, shit, reminds me of some1 doesn't it? sorry, talking to myself is one of the symptoms of this emptiness feeling inside me, ever had that? ALWAYS...

anyways, one of the days during editing, me, cy, km n julian+heman+hui hsing+gf went out for a murni session, it was nice hanging out with them, julian is anticipating a collaboration with me, he's spotted a few talented ppl in d class and hopes we can work together or something, i'm flattered but wonders what he sees in me... :\ haha, anyways, exams is around d corner, i need to buckle up or else goes my dean's list! dad says it's alright... most importantly, dad says not to worry too much... it was not my fault that i got such group mates, i can't control things that're out of my hands.. me misses makan with daddy.. haha.. the little things he does for me! :) me loves daddy.. i feel like a kid now... in my dad's eyes, i'm always a kid, the one that nearly gt knocked by a car but was saved by him... :D haha, sorry, silly judgement, was about 4/6 that time i guess.. haha.. mum said we shouldn't have come up with such a hard idea.. i think she does not know that it should be outstanding.. and that she thinks d story is too violent.. watever...

i'm out shopping again, credit card is usable now.. :P
i don't feel like changing d color of this post, but wth...

until then, this is jOyCe signing out at 11.27(thinesh's bday) , 28th August 2009

Disappointed

things going on my mind :
_empty_
some1's song...

MV screening has finally ended.. all i can say is, disappointment.... if we even get marks, 75% of the credits should be to me & chi yee... we did most of the things... from pre to post... but the outcome was rather disappointing... a few parts to highlight here is reeve failed to find us a singer, he failed to help during production, and he din offer to help post-production... hock leng, was alright at first, he was supposed to do editing, whatever he edited wasn't following d order of the storyboard, and some full perfect shots, he cut them into several bits, and he lost d original hand drawn storyboard which chi yee drew so diligently... in d end, we need to do almost everything all over again, wasted damn 1 week there.. in the end, he din even show up last few critical days, which chi yee n i stayed back till 10 + to edit... i did some editing here n there.. music in d end, was handed up in minus 1 state, coz' i sang on the last day, it sounded ok, & when put into video, sounded like gila-low key... i can't even hear make up the words.. mr. beh was disappointed coz "you guys promised a full song".. the t3 ppl, well, i must say from the beginning of d production, they've always felt like they were here to HELP us only, and not A TEAM... so they were only there for production week, then, they went on to do their own things.. and shawn, could only give negative comments and useless ideas... he even went on my nerves by saying "can we have the background music only, without anyone singing" after we couldn't find anyone to sing, however, we actually did just that... he insisted he wanted to sing the song when everyone else thinks he's not suitable... and when it was time for him to sing, he couldn't even finish half a listen-able song after 3 hrs... which in d end, chi yee couldn't take it anymore, juz recorded whatever the best they could do that day, after that, he says the song is nice, when i wanted to show it to ppl, he said "i know its not nice, dun have to promote it", promote?! i was clenching my fist ready to punch him if he says another word! when everyone insisted i sing to let them know the melody, i asked him to sing, he dun wan, when i sing halfway, he interrupts! wat a rude chauvinistic man!all i can say is, these 3 assholes, have made me n chi yee utter mad! i din have the face to let everyone in my class see the video let a long lecturers and QUEK! eurghhh....wasted lar... maybe it was too much of expectation, too much time constraint, which ended in too much of disappointment... tat's what happens when you put all left-overs/outcasts in a group, when i really wanna let a huge sigh to signify the end of this music video...
*SIIIIIIIIIIIIIGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH*
kudos to Julian's team which did an awesome-extraordinary-exceptionally-magnificent-remarkable job with his gothic-techno song with videos that is about the 7 deadly sins... he used the scariest music in classical music and vamped it into that sort of scary scenes... all i can say is, a new Quek is born... :)
other than tat, a few MVs carry the same story.. a couple or bf-gf/friends, den one dies, leaving the other behind etc... the few that stands out is Absolution, Mortal indulgence(Julian's), and Shed a tear...
moving along, this semester was supposed to be one of the best & fun ones, but it turned out to be the most disappointing one, i hope i can make it through this time... but hope seems to be so far away! i wish i could do it all over again~~ pls help me! i need a rest from this useless world i'm in...


until then, this is jOyCe signing out at 11.47pm, 27th August 2009

btw, a lot of ppl's birthday coming according to my Facebook list. What, all of a sudden everyone's parents wanted a Merdeka baby?

i have a chocolate heaven in my house now

things going on my mind :
my house, especially my room is filled with food, esp chocolates...


coz' that's wat i'll need for the next few weeks... as deadlines are approaching and finals are nearing, i have myself in deep stress, my assignment marks have been lower than average, my mid-terms have been average and my major assignment is no where average... the story is i just came back from a warehouse sale and i've bought TONS of chocs and they have to be finished around d end of August, so just in time for my deadlines... i currently have 5 assignments to finish around the whole of august, comm theory redo, dreamweaver website, moral presentation, music video, and advertising copy writing... juz finished moral mid-term, i thinkhope i'll have average marks if not higher...
i have yet to figure out what i should wear for my role as a mother in my music video, i'm definitely wearing my mum's 150+ angelic tunic, but that's only for the scene where i'm going to be lying on the ground... other than that, i have to figure it out.... have yet to get brushes for body paint, and experiment them.. i am also d make-up artist... how now?
monday's gonna be scouring day... scouring for costumes in particular.. for the male lead...
i need to make a list of things i need to buy, do and a call sheet! OMG, I FEEL SO OVERWHELMED!

ps : Happy Birthday Meng Chun! i hope u still remember me and the things that happened 3,4 years ago!

until then, this is jOyCe signing out at 9.57pm , 1st August 2009