i won't be influenced by nonsense i tell u...

things going on my mind :
wtf?!
exams

okay, my blog has recently became a place i vent, i apologize but to read or not, is your choice, it's here for me to:
1. vent
2. remind me why i behave a certain way/why don't like/like something...

the issue before this is sorta solved, here's another

here goes,

Facebook Wars :

it all started when the TVP1 filler marks came out, which was on sunday morning
let me quote,
"玩针对，卑鄙小人。维护自己的gang，这种叫朋友？我呸！有没有都罢！！！"
loosely translated, it means "cunning ppl, protecting their own gang, this is what you call friends? got or not oso i don't care"

mind you this was posted right after the marks were out, at first, i didn't think of it much, then when i saw the conversation below it, she claims her marks were not fair, that she thinks we're protecting our own friends by giving low marks to others and to our own friends(or what she likes to call it, GANGS) higher marks, feels like f'ing us, and that we collaborate to give other outsiders low marks...

i replied:
"excuse me, bitch! pls think of what you've contributed to the group before saying that we joint together to give you low marks!! 反省一下你自己有付出过什么! I gave marks according to what I observed, if you're not satisfied, go eat shit larr..."

then she said:
"mother of bitches !!! 双面人！我呸事你！好像废人酱坐在那边，这叫contributions?我晕！有车就是contributions? 载人就是contributions?我呸！！！车油钱又不是只有你们出！i dont expect 2 b in d same group as u guys anymore, anyway. so, i dont k. besides, plz x tell me dat u x have gengs in dat group or u guys give marks fairly, like I've no eyes. i knw im jz an outsider, so ...im x surprised ur 'gengs' give ur own members high2 marks."
translation, "double faced person, i look down on you. sitting at the side like a useless is called contributions? got car means contributions? driving people means contributions? the petrol money wasn't only paid by you all etc."

my rationale :
look, everyone had a chance to hold the video camera, did you take? did you use any of your energy to contribute anything to this assignment? did you suggest any ideas?
true that got car doesn't mean contribution, but have you thought the drivers need a lot of energy and concentration to even drive you at midnight to the shooting location? all you did was sleep...
it's also true that i din pay all the petrol money but have you thought of the wear and tear of my baby 9948? having to go full load with 5 ppl in the car is very tiring for him, if you say it so easily, i'd rather pay you to drive us there, how about that? i'm not making a cent out of driving you all there you know, don't say it as if your money is very big...
besides, the first reason you came to our group is because YOU didn't have a group, YOUR OWN tutorial group didn't even wanna accept you, can you imagine what sort of troubles you have caused them to make them have such bad impression over you?
yes, our group is the main foundation of the group, but i gave marks according to what i've seen, and mind you, ckm gave marks very high for everyone for this assignment, you got low marks because others didn't see you work, even the person with the lowest marks isn't complaining, how dare you! and how dare you scold him, he's just trying to help... the marks were given collectively, don't blame it on ME that you've gotten low marks, what about the other 7? if they too gave u such low marks, i think you have to really sit down quietly to think of why they gave you low marks, isn't it?
and also, NO ONE treated you as a friend.. i'm sure i didn't...
and then, NO ONE came to us to ask if the editting was done, or whether we needed help, or whether we needed some songs or whatever, everything we did by ourselves, even the idea was brought up by OUR own member... even the day we handed up the filler, NO ONE asked if it was done or anything...
and the location's permission was applied by me, without the approval, i don't think the scene would be that nice, but then again, you weren't there...
without car, you would need to walk to the location don't you, don't tell me u didn't sit in anyone's car, and you, having to have people sending you home all the way back, all the petrol was paid by the production to send you home, like i said, you could've stayed at my place...
without my network, do u even think u'd be able to have such professional talents?
heck, don't you even dare to complain when all you did was nothing...

then i replied
"look who's talking, it takes a 'mother of bitches' to know one.. but hey, without us, u're nothing! without you, we're still able to do everything... end of story."
and
"most of the time, people are blinded by their own mistakes. to be able to have done so much for the production, is something that I could be proud of, because at the end of the day, I benefitted from the whole assignment, I've learnt A LOT!"

then she started showing me the middle finger thru her profile picture,

hey you, when i first started to show the middle finger, you were still too young to even understand the word "fuck"...

true enough, without you, we can still do everything, without us, you don't even have a single mark...
when i needed some1's help to do something, no one offered a hand, everyone only sat at the sidelines, in the end, I had to do it myself, i don't mind doing more, like i said, i learnt a lot thru all these, but don't pretend like you've done a lot, when your biggest 'contribution' was looking after the primary school tony, Yi Jun... all the other casts were casted by me, i don't know if you wanted to sabo us or not, but you could've told me earlier to look for a back up if you knew your talent would be hesitant, lucky thing i asked for Gino's help, if not, you would've jeopardized the whole assignment...
and i don't even know why i was cracking my head to try to put you into one of the positions in the credits so that you have more positions that shows your part, i should've just left you out to die, your talent was one of the smallest character needed, but yet, i had to be a nice person to put you as my assistant
what could've been worst than not being in time for the call time? you were not there for half the day!! i know you live far, that is why i OFFERED my home for you to stay in for the production period, but NO, you had to go home...
oh, have you even offered to help in post production? as bad as the other 3 were, they still came to school to offer help, even reeve came to overnight to help try and do the gun shot powder effect thing, where have you been? you only came on the last day at the very last minute when we were exporting the thing, i'd rather you stay at home and don't take up the space in mac lab, you wanted to show the lecturer that you were there for the editting process izit?
we had another assignment to do, scriptwriting, so you only thought that YOU had to rush that only izit? so the rest of the people editting one no need to rush lar? moreover, whatever you've done is pure bullshit, i've never seen someone as dumb as you were writing malay and chinese in an english script, don't you know that ms. ash can't understand chinese? and then you threw everything to chi yee/kar mun for them to correct your mistakes until they die?
bottom line is, if you're not happy with the marks, go complain to the lecturer lar..

then i replied:
pls stop degrading yourself any further when what you did was TOTALLY nothing... zero, nada, yilek, kosong...

she said :
feel sorry 4 ur parents 4 having such kid... feel sorry 4 ur siblings 4 having such sister... feel sorry 4 ur relatives 4 having such cousin/niece... feel sorry 4 u 4 being in dis world !!! muahahaha~ YA, u can continue barking over there. i will do watever that makes me happy. ur barking wun stop me anyway!!! So, jz f*** OFF !!!

are you referring to yourself? my family is so proud to have a daughter/sister/cousin/niece who's in the dean's list for 2 times, what callie do you have?
and also, red comm is a very reputable company, i don't know what company you were accepted for internship, but you're living in MALAYsia, if you don't mix well with them, you have no place to stand i'll tell you.... but then again, maybe your language is not good enough to be able to communicate with them, mayb that's why they didn't accept you...
so what if all the actors are malay, i'm glad to be given a chance to work with them, i already have a chinese celeb in my family... what do you have?
oh btw, i didn't bark, maybe you were a dog, so u read human words as barks, pity you...
oh, and have i said, you need to learn to work with other people, don't keep thinking you wanna do indi, nothing is indi i'll tell u.. if anything can do individually, go fuck yourself and make a baby out of it la... dumb ass

whatever you say, is your right, but i'll tell you that i did nothing wrong, i'm not afraid to stand up and say whatever i like, if you have the guts to look through your wrongs and admit your wrongs, i'm glad, but if you're that blind to not see your mistakes, i'm so sorry for you...

if you're not satisfied with whatever i said, COME TALK TO ME FACE TO FACE and i'll slap you with all my rationale...

END OF STORY. PERIOD.


until then, this is jOyCe signing out at 12.47am, 28th April 2010